word of the day...

my word of the day for today is...

RIDICULOUS... it's such a fun word to say... if you think about it... say it... it sounds funny... it's way better than weird or out of control... here's the definition from dictionary.com - Deserving or inspiring ridicule; absurd, preposterous, or silly.

sometimes i feel absolutely ridiculous... i don't even think i realize it until it's too late... tonight i hung out with a fun friend i get to see on a not-so-regular basis... but i always leave feeling refreshed and encouraged... maybe it's the freedom to say whatever we want without fear of judgment or ridicule (i threw a form of it in again...)... since we don't see each other that much and aren't really in the same circle, there is a freedom that comes with our friendship... i love it...
but tonight there were a couple of people with us who don't really know me at all... and looking back on it, i think they must think that i'm ridiculous... i kept thinking things were funny and then i'd snort... and i don't know if it comes across as annoying or endearing... and i kept asking questions for the group - because it's kind of what i do... and i shouldn't really care what other people think... but a lot of times, i do... because it's also kind of what i do...

on a side note... kind of related... tonight i found myself missing things about the northwest... i miss my friends who are there... i miss being a part of things and only being able to hear about them on the phone... i miss the people i worked with and went to school with... i want to go visit soon and hope that my work schedule and my budget allow me to... if you want to contribute to the "send robyn to portland for a visit" fund, let me know... although it's not tax-deductable, anything helps... :)...

i have some other deep stuff to write, but i don't want to ruin a fun entry...

so i'll go back to where i started... here are some questions for all to answer... a)what's the most ridiculous thing you've done, b) what's the most ridiculous thing you've done today (and if you can't think of anything, then maybe you should try ridiculosity (yes, i just made that word up...)...), c)what is the most ridiculous movie or song that you can think of?

here are my answers:

a) this is just one example off the top of my head... singing "you've lost that lovin' feeling" at the top of my lungs with 2 of my favorite northwest friends and another fun northwest friend while waiting for the seattle-bainbridge island ferry.b) acting kind of crazy at dinner and at starbucks - asking everyone if they knew what a lingonberry is (it's on the menu at ihop) and acting like the starbucks employees are my friends...c) my boss' daughter - it's just too over the top... followed closely by the notebook...

and, in writing this post, i was reminded of one of my favorite quotes from a movie...
"if you can't laugh at yourself, life's gonna seem a whole lot longer than you like..." be the first one to name the movie, get some points...

Rest In Peace, dear friend...

I had to say goodbye to a good friend this weekend... This friend has been with me for a while, proving her friendship by supporting me when i was overseas... at times, i felt like she was the only friend i had...

but she was sick... some rare disease and they i knew that it could be anytime when she would finally pass, leaving me heartbroken and alone...
and saturday night it happened...

my laptop died... it's been threatening a hard drive failure... and the cd drive didn't work anymore... and it was getting slow... but saturday, something went crazy... and it took me 20 minutes to try and restart it... then a few error messages... then a crazy screen... then the error message that i need to install a windows cd because a file is corrupt or missing...

i don't have windows cds, because someone put it on my computer for me... and before the offers roll in, remember, my cd drive doesn't work... so i don't really have a way of getting the file onto my computer... i tried attaching the external hard drive i have to it, hoping it would be like life support... but it didn't work...
so, even though the hard drive didn't completely crash, my computer is completely non-usable... hopefully i'll be able to get a new computer soon... until then, i will mourn the loss of my dear friend...

i heart my friends...

today i had an incredibly boring day at this place where i'm temp-ing to make some extra money until i can start working at the church... it really might be the most bored i have ever been in my entire life... sincerely... i never got that bored in school and i was bored in school a lot...

but, it's one block away from an amazing restaurant that i LOVE... it's called otter's and it's a chicken tenders restaurant... and it makes my heart smile... the only thing that i could imagine that would make it better to me was if they had coke products instead of pepsi...

while i was there, i called my brother (because i was all by myself)... and it was so great to talk to him... and it made me get a little homesick for my friends... so i started trying to figure out a weekend to go to the big j-town for a visit... thanks to the technology of the internet (thanks, al), i am able to communicate with my dear friends who live hours away - those who don't return phone calls... (i'm not bitter... i'm just saying...)

so memorial day weekend will find me in the big j-town... and possibly some days before that... but i will need a place to stay... any offers? let me know...

and i'm not sure why - but tonight's movie is napoleon dynamite... oh that's right... because it's hilarious... and the opening song makes me think of my friends... who i love... here's a nugget of friend-love lyrics...

and we don't notice any time pass
we don't notice anything
we sit side by side in every class
teacher thinks that i sound funny
but she likes the way you sing

tonight i'll dream while i'm in bed
when silly thoughts go through my head
about the bugs and alphabet
and when i wake tomorrow i'll bet
that you and i will walk together again
cause i can tell that we
are going to be friends

big changes in my life...

it seems my life will never settle down... but if it did, it would probably take the fun out of it... so... here's the newest update...

i quit my job... i was still "temp status" and the longer i was there, the more i realized that it wasn't the place where i needed to be... since they weren't "married" to me yet, and i wasn't "married" to them, either, i knew it could be a clean break... so, i gve notice and finished out the day... that was thursday...

i made some phone calls and had a meeting with the church that i had interviewed with before... and they have offered me a job which i will start june 1. i wasn't ready for it then, but it's perfect timing (and the perfect job) now... it would take a long time for me to describe in words... if you saw my face or heard me talk about it, it would be obvious to you...

so things are good... and i'm hoping the temp agency will be able to find me some work between now and june 1...

so they're good changes... but that's what is going on... i'll give more updates about the job later on...